Hey everyone.
It's about 3:15pm in the UK and I've not long been up. Had an awful night again, anxiety was through the roof, self harm and suicidal throughts just racing through my head. Luckily I'd asked my Mum to sleep in a sleeping bag on the floor in my room, as this was the third night in a row that I'd been particularly bad. So I woke her up and we sat and had a drink (tea not alcohol lol). But my nerves where shot to bits and I ended up feeling really sick. So I went back up to bed and thankfully I must of wore myself out because I fell asleep just after 5:30am.
Slept in till 12pm and suprisingly I don't feel too tired. I'm not sure if that will be a good thing or a bad thing come tonight. I'd love to know why it's the nights that are so bad. I seem to turn into some kind of 'out of control lemming on the verge of a nervous breakdown'. 
Anyway I'm not too bad at the moment...still quite on edge but in control. I thought I'd update now before I become a wreck again by tonight.
Hope everyone is doing ok and had a good nights sleep.

x-Bliss-x