Bad Night

Tonight is a bad night for me. I don't know why but I just want to break down and cry. I'm feeling really lonely right now, and I've got a hollow ache inside. At almost 20 years old, and I've never had a relationship. I've never even had a kiss. It's really getting to me right now for some reason. I know people always tell me "just wait. One of these days some guy (even though I want a girl) will walk into your life and it'll all be worth it." But right now lying in bed, I can't hold onto "someday". I can only lay here and dream of what it might feel like to have someone you love always be there when you need them. Someone who understands everything about you. Someone who with kiss and hug you when you feel like nothings going your way. This might just be my whole romantic movie understanfing of a relationship, but I want to know what it's really like. So, because of me feeling like this I know it's going to be forever falling asleep tonight, dreaming of finally having that first relationship.