Ugh

Sometimes it seems sooo hard to stay in a good and happy balance. I was going to say with this disease, but it's true with all of life I think. Right now though I'm struggling with the disease part of my life.
I want to talk about it, but I hate talking about it. I don't want it to take over my life, but it already has changed so much in my life. Here disease, sit on that chair and let's discuss this. I understand you are in charge of some things, but I need to be in charge of some things too. We have to share this body so let's make the best of it. I'm not always sure how but I want to keep trying.
It's interesting to me that writing how I'm feeling and working that stuff out in my brain usually helps me feel at least a little better. I want to be strong and happy. I need to set my own limits. I will give it another try.
Now I am happy again.

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mamamoe
mamamoe

Dee, Hope you\'re feeling more in balance today. I understand what you mean.
For me, sometimes I get confused on what it the right/wrong thing for the disease as well as for me. Guess we take it one step at a time.
Take care and hugs,
Moe
deleted_user
deleted_user

Dee, Knowing smile, yes it is sometimes so hard to maintain even the hint of a positive attitude but we will. we will look the uglyness in the eye and say F you ugly, and we will fight the good fight. Dee you are a basic happy person, you cant be anything but, it not your nature. And besides I won\'t let you. Take care my dear, Bill