PAUL CANT FORGIVE ME OR SELF FOR THINGS THAT HAPPED IN HIS LIFE.  TOO BAD HE IS A KIND MAN JUST NOT A FORGIVING ONE.  ON THE OTHER HAND I FORGIVE TOO MUCH AND CHASHED AFTER A DREAM WAY TOO LONG THAT DIDNT EXIST.  WELL HAVE LEFT PAUL EMOTIONLY AND PHYSICALY EVEN THOUGHT IT WAS AT HIS REQUEST.  IT IS OVER ALL BUT THE DIVORCE.