woke up feeling very crazy, know have to let paul go, in public he loving caring nutering to others just not to me.  he  says just dosent want to be married,it dosent matter if to me or not. when i wanted to leave i told him i didnt trust him, he said after 2 years of marriage  i would trust him.  well after 2-3 month cant keep track any more.  feel he set me up-promissed 2 wk trip and of course cant go because got mad at him.  so he went alone and me sent home to try try to figuure things out.  well i dont trust him or self he lied told me 3yr after death of wife  was 5 mo  he was already in 3 relationships that failed i wasnt even totaly out of 8yr relationship that was failing,  paying for not greiving old relationship.  head is clear now.  hope i do not try   to fix paul or anyone else it does not work.