son.   is angry with me as he should be over steped a boundry, just wanted him to feel better.  told me he was suicidal had said before did what i thought was right at the time.  often do the wrong things, dont understand how one can be wrong so much of the time trying to do the right thing.  was calling mh for self , and started talking about son instead, have trouble admitting im the one with the brain dease  it is always some one  eles fault not mine. hope some day will get it in my head it is me who is mentaly ill cant blame me if i want it to be some one elses fault all the time lo lo lo i tried of trying to fix me there is no fix some days are ok some are not all i want is to be loved i love me most of the time but it is hard no one loves me the way i want to be loved love others way too much dont leve enought for me.