Last week I felt I was starting to gain some control over my life......This week I can't even keep my thoughts straight. My mind is just racing with all kinds of thoughts. I feel defeated this week. The weight of all this crap is sinking me. I feel, hell I'm not even sure how exactly I feel. There are just so mant feelings racing around in my head.Sorry to my dear friends, I have not been getting back to you or checking on how you guys are feeling. I've just been overwhelmed. I was trying to keep that happy face in hopes to change this around. I'll keep flowing along.