I feel really low today. Cramps again and they always hit me hard but that's not why I feel low. Yesterday my boyfriend had to stop by his work to drop off his incident reports from the previous night - he's a security guard - and he stood there and chatted it up with his work buddies for at least 15 mins without even introducing me, not even so much as a glance in my direction. And then to add injury to insult, I opened his cell phone to show him the features of the camera and what do I see as the phone screen saver - a skinny, tanned young woman in a bikini. I guess he's ashamed of me.