I haven't felt this down and overwhelmed in a very very long time.  I don't know what to do with all of this emotional pain I am dealing with.  It just hurts.  I am having panic attacks pretty much every night b/c of it.  I need help.  I can't think I can't focus I can't breath.  I don't want to go into work to day.  My brain can't take it. 
 
I need help.