I can't f-ing believe it! My friend Chris and I have a long history of talking about our problems. He is severely depressed and suicidal, he cuts and might have BPD. Long story short we got in a huge fight and stopped talking for awhile. I was pissed because all I ever did for him was try to help and all he ever did was insult me and treat me like shit. Anyway, we made up finally and had this really good long conversation two days ago. He was telling me about how he wasn't cutting and doing a little better. Then today he IMs me this.... Okay damn you. Now I am cutting again and I don't want to stop. I'm not actually pissed at you, I just hadn't cut for a long time. It's like sex. The more you talk about it the more you want it. He blames me. How the fuck can you just blame someone for this and tell them to their face! I thought things were better,. I thought we could be friends again. I don't want to give up on him yet but I just can't believe someone would say something like that. What a manipulative, hurtful bastard! 

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jarrettg
jarrettg

Don\'t take it..it isn\'t your fault. He needs to get in to a pdoc and get some things resolved. You being his friend are an easy target..don\'t take it, it isn\'t your fault.
HE NEEDS HELP!
rennikc
rennikc

I don\'t think he really blames you, I think he blames himself for liking you more than you know. The break between the two of you took you off of his mind for a while, but now that you are back his feelings for you are surfacing again. Just a feeling I have about the situation.