Fat.

Well I am feeling less overwhelmed by school.  I just ate an entire pint of ice cream though.  I think I can feel the fat forming.  I wish I could be a better eater.  I still really miss anorexia.  I know it is dumb and horrible.  Guys keep checking me out when I'm walking to and from classes.  I normally would love it but I don't.  I hate it.  I think I look chubby and unattractive.  Why the hell are they looking at me?  I am tired of being the curvy one.  All of my friends are sticks!  I know guys don't really like the super skinny look but I am sick of my fat.