I have started to accept my body.  I put on a little weight (5-8 lbs) during college.  At first I was upset about it but all I have heard since coming back home is how great I look.  I know that real guys don't want stick thin girls they want someone who looks like a real person.  I also know that I'm not fat by any means compared to the average woman.  But for some reason I kind of miss being upset over my body.  Sometimes I even find myself missing being anorexic.  I don't know.  I mean its great that I don't look in the mirror and get upset and that I have more confidence.  I guess its just weird because all I can remember is hating my body and thinking I'm fat.  Also, I'm scared that if I accept my body the way it is I won't control my eating and exercising and I will just keep gaining weight.