I hate living with my mom.  I absolutely hate it.  I want her to go away forever.  I can't stand this.  I need to get out but she won't let me.  I don't understand why she has to be such a selfish bitch.  I haven't thought about cutting or suicide or how much I hate my life for such a long time.  Now that I'm back home it is all I can think about.  I can't fucking do this anymore.