I feel super bored and restless.  I hate feeling like this.  I never know what to do with myself.  A lot of my friends are leaving tomorrow and I still have exams.  I guess I'm stressed and sad.  I am kind of freaking out.  I don't like change.  In fact I hate it.  I hate knowing that my life will never be like this again.  Even though I'm coming back to college in 10 weeks it won't be the same.  I don't like this.  My thoughts are racing.  I really want to eat but I'm not actually hungry.  No wonder I'm getting fat.  I should be studying.  I did like nothing all day.  I mean I know I totally have time to finish studying tomorrow but still for some reason I'm freaking out.  I hate this I hate this I hate this.  I hate change.  What is wrong with me.  I don't want it to be tomorrow.  I don't want to have to say goodbye.  I just want everything to stay the same.  I can't do this.  I'm scared.