I'm having a lot of issues with my body. I definitely out grew some of my shorts and pants. I don't know if its just because I'm maturing and my hips are widening or if its because I'm getting fat. Also I know I have said this a million times but I'm just not pretty. All of my friends are so much better looking than me. I don't know why a guy would ever want me. Ugh. I wish I knew how to fix myself. I feel like nothing I ever try works. Maybe I'm just destined to be alone. I want a new face and a new body. I feel so ugly and embarrassed. When ever we go out partying I see all of these beautiful girls who get all of the guys. All of this is really hard for me to admit. I just want to be beautiful. I wish I didn't care. I don't know. I'm getting too upset.