Thursday, February 28, 2008

I have been having the urge lately to do something I am not supposed to do.  I have wanted to cut but I told myself that if I didn't cut for a year I would get a tattoo (something I have wanted for a couple years) as a reward.  I've also thought of getting drunk. I have never had more than a glass of wine before.  I am not supposed to drink because I am on effexor though.  Another option that has occurred to me is to get high but I'm really not the type of person that does drugs.  I would be too scared I would get caught or do something stupid.  I just feel like I need some sort of outlet but something more on the naughty/dangerous side.  I'm worried I am going to end up doing something stupid.  I don't know what to do.