Well I think I have i officially relapsed into some sort of eating disorder. I definitely eat but I count calories and I haven't eaten more than 1,700. I know that sounds like a lot of food but I have also been exercising for at least 40 minutes everyday. Plus I am 6' 1'' with a high metabolism so I need to eat a lot. I worry about my weight and compulsively feel the need to exercise or be active. The problem is I don't want to change. I love this feeling. I feel fit and proud of myself for sticking to my goal to get healthy andlose weight. I don't want to tell my therapist because I know she will try to take it away from me. I have told my roommate and I know she is worried but there really isn't anything she can do. I feel like I have power and control over myself which I know is what eating disorders are all about. I love it!