I have so much going on in real life and inside my read right now. I don't know what to do. Sometimes reality doesn't even feel real. I wish I could experience real emotions. I feel sruface stuff for like a few minutes. Its almost as if I am dead inside though. Its just a void. Right now I am writing this after taking some ambien so sorry if it doesn't make a lot of sense. I'm going to bed soon but I just needed to get this off my chest. I don't understand why I keep pushing through each day if I'm never going to be happy. I don't even remember what happy or content feels like anymore. What if this is the way the rest of my life is going to be? Whats the point in living through it? I feel like I just live day to day with no satisfaction or negatives or anything. Its very monotonous. Its boring and seems pointless. Blah. I want to feel again.
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Talk to your doctor about adding Welbutrin......that should help. I was in a similar position for the longest time, but that was before any meds. I am not sure how long you have been on the meds, but sometimes it will take a little time for your levels to balance out and for things to feel better.
Hey hun. I know how you feel. My days consist of nothing but the same old thing, and it dosent feel like I really know what happy is anymore. It is really hard to keep on the right path and to think positively but if I can do it, so can you! I know your a strong person. Maby write a list of things you can do and when you feel like this, look at your list and pick something off it to do so you can be occupied instead of always thinking. I really hope this helps!!
Love and Energies.
Kayla