Will try to update what I wrote in reply to Carhian on 5/11/12, which explains my situation pretty much.
I should have made my entry in a journal, and I will when time permits, as I am a constant caregiver to my husband, and things are a little more involved since he recently came home from the hospital ( again)
I feel very worned out sometimes, physically, mentally, psychologically, emotionally, as this has been going on for 3 years and I am not a young person; my heart always prevails, and the deep love and devotion I feel for my hubby continues to fuel my strength.
Looking forward to chat and support any of you in a similar situation.