I put in 13 and half hours yesterday and the last 6 was spent working trying to fight back tears.  By the time I got home my chest and neck and head were so tight I thought I was dying.  My poor husband held me so tight but the pain of knowing that my kids hate me is just too much.
I just want to lay down and die!!!No I'm not suicidal just wish I could lay down and die. Disappear into the abyss.
Reality is I have to face this God awful pain each and everyday and for what reason.  Why does goes allow such heart ache and misery?  Why can't he just eliminate the cause of the hurt and just fix it?
I am sick of this pain its a daily struggle and I WANT A REFUND!!!!