I am at my lowest point!!! I am so dang mad I have taken every raw emotion that I have and used it against my loving husband, what an idiot I am!!!!!  My ES gf/wife text me today and tells me what a worthless mother I am and that I am a liar and a manipulator. WTH?  Who did I lie to and about what?  I am told also that my sons are nothing like me but the truth of the matter is they are like me.  
 
I so hate my freaking life right now!!!! I would give anything to be anywhere than right here!!!  Matter of fact no one would freaking miss me if I did disappear!!!  I have just had enough.  My heart is in shreads and nobody gives a shit about that so whatever,  
Maybe I will feel better in the morning I sure as heck hope so!