I figured I would tell you all about my dream last night. Ok. Here's a story of what went on about a year ago, i haven't gotten over it. About a year ago, i was caught dating a girl from school. Her dad found out and came to my house and told my parents, I was at church, so dad came and got me, drove like a freakin maniac home. I didn't even know what was going on, 'til i saw my ex's dad's truck in my driveway. My heart sank. To end this forbidden love story quick, my dad wanted to 'force' information out of me, and ended up beating me with his belt, and my belt, when my mom took his from him. Ok. Last night, I had a dream my dad was trying to get in my room to harm me, and for some very odd, but good, reason, I had a machette, lol. I took the machette and, as he came toward me, I would swing it and make contact. I would see his blood start to ooze out of his arm. Also, I think I ended up putting the machette to his throat, but I don't think I killed him. This was a very weird dream. Yesterday, I saw my dad take his belt off and my heart sank, and i had a flashback. I hate it when that happens. Mom and Dad think things are okay, but i beg to differ. It still scares me to watch Dad take his belt off. That's just wrong. Well, I just needed to get that out. Thanks for reading. Love to all.
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Sounds to me alot like post-traumatic stress, Hon. Flashbacks are common after experiencing trauma. Being beated with belts is trauma. Abuse. I know because I lived with that all the while I was growing up! I\'m so glad you feel safe to post about your dream here on DS. It\'s good to get it out and be able to look at it on the screen and realize that was then, this is now, but because it\'s bothering you at such a deep, subconscious level, you might want to consider some counseling. Would your parents allow you to do that? I\'m thinking of you Sweetie, and hoping for the best. Stay in touch - let me know how things are going, ok? Hugs, Trish
Sounds to me alot like post-traumatic stress, Hon. Flashbacks are common after experiencing trauma. Being beated with belts is trauma. Abuse. I know because I lived with that all the while I was growing up! I\'m so glad you feel safe to post about your dream here on DS. It\'s good to get it out and be able to look at it on the screen and realize that was then, this is now, but because it\'s bothering you at such a deep, subconscious level, you might want to consider some counseling. Would your parents allow you to do that? I\'m thinking of you Sweetie, and hoping for the best. Stay in touch - let me know how things are going, ok? Hugs, Trish
hey trish. thanks for the comment. i\'ve been to counseling and hated it. and get this, i want to be a pychiatrist. lol. it\'s just something i still have to get over. that tramatic event happened a year and a half ago. this is the first time i\'d had a flashback in, gosh, 5 months. it just really scared me and i needed to get that out of my mind. it\'s hard to do when you have to put up with ur dad everyday. he hasn\'t done that since, so that\'s good. all he did was take off his belt and i remembered that he did that just before he beat me with it. and it took me back to that horrible time.
oh shit, almost went back again. don\'t want that. i\'m pretty sure i\'ll be ok. thanks for your concern. it means alot. btw, my gf broke up with me. i\'m doing alright i guess. ttyl.