hi all hope everyone doing ok! i'm not feeling too bad today i feel i'm finally gaining control of my weight and i think once thats done i might be able to cope a bit better with ben because to be honest i've not been coping with him and it breaks my heart when i hear my other 3 kids saying how much they hate ben and i've tried to explain it to them but they don't understand and i don't really expect them to because i'm only just starting to get my head round it all but we stick together and we'll get through. take care all mel x