It's 10pm and I'm exhausted. I was in bed, in pain all day. Pain is so exhausting. It cheers me up, however, to read my messages and to receive hugs as well. I'm glad I'm in this website because it helps me to keep in mind that so many others are suffering out there, that people do genuinely care..as I do genuinely care about others and that I'm not alone and that my thoughts are just as "normal" as another. I wish I could wave a huge wand and make everyone's pain disappear. I know that all I can do is pray for others and become a good friend to those who might need one. A friend of mine tells me the other day, "you are NOT your illness and don't let it define who you are or who you become in the future."  That's good advice, and it comes from someone w/a big heart. Regardless of what's happening in my life, I sincerely hope for and wish the very best for my loved ones and strangers as well. Perhaps, I'm being too sappy, but it's part of my nature.  I do hope that more people come into my life because I'm so lonely that it upsets me so much and I cry alot.  My emotions get so strong @ times that I just start crying, but not just for nothing, though. I'm getting sleepy so I'm gonna stop for now.G. night!