trying

feeling like poo.  I have been emotional, achy, tired, and crabby.  I have no desire to do anything. my xmas stuff is still up. I have an amazing boyfriend and am afraid one day he may say "screw this sorry girl" and leave... like my husband did. I know he is better than that, but it still scares me. my kids don't get it. I just feel frustrated. people whine about life and I wanna kick their shins and tell them how awful it COULD BE. Lupus bites.