I just feel terrible all the time like no one cares about me at all. All my life all I've ever tried to do was to be a good person. But my life is on a steady decline and I feel like I want to cut myself off from this world and not exist. I mean it's not like I exist right now, im shunned wherever I go and I try to reach out to people but they see my sad case and don't want to get involved and get dragged down with me. Not that I can blame them people living an okay life will be ten times happier once they look my life. At least there won't be anyone to miss me when I'm gone so I can't cause people more pain then I'm in right now.