I am afraid of getting fat... and I am ashamed of my body. So why can't I stop eating the chocolate and stick to something that will help me lose weight and stick to the exercise to get the body I want? ... This fear is driving me. I let it go and give it to you God. I want to achieve this... I am 24 nearly, I don't want to go on any longer with this attitude/mentality/burden, it's tearing me apart inside and making me so very depressed!!!!!