I found out that I've got asthma yesterday. It's no wonder,  because I haven't been able to breathe for some time now!!! Ah!. I just can't help but think to myself that I brought this on somehow and that somehow it's my own fault. I feel that maybe by my shocking eating patterns during bingeing (and even the purging) has done this to me. I am a very fit person.. I don't really understand why. I know my family does have it and all have bad lungs so I guess I can't just think as if I am exempt to that. So far today I've had an apricot and half a bag of macadamia nuts! and a decaf coffee cappacino thing.It's not that great- nuts are loaded with fat (and protein at least).. but it's not that bad either.Saw the counsellor today, and I feel I'm improving, she can see me distancing myself from the anxiety. And at least I can be at ease with her now we are past with me not showing up for my appointments!! *I cringe!* at my failure to do so.I'm going to take my sick doggie to the vet and come back later.