I feel really sick. I just can not have junk trigger foods in the house, but it's not my choice because I share this house!. I have my own foods but then my parents buy stuff that are available for the taking as well.... and so I only end up eating more or the wrong stuff.Thing is I think i can control it more, its just Im finding myself in situations where I just give in (I feel crook after eating half a bucket of ice cream, full cream mind you and I am lactose intolerant. That is how stupid this food game is. I'm feeling REALLY anxious about monday's exam and can't bring myself to keep my mind concentrating on studying very easily. I am just falling apart. I feel when exams are over that I'll be able to keep to a diet, because frankly the reasons I eat are totally around studying and avoiding study and because doing anythign else I feel guilty about before I do it but with food- it's basically after I do it each time. Not fun! Anyway, this feels like a binge eating relapse but I'm just going to say- I had a bad week and it will get better. I'm going to be positive, I choose to be pro-active and positive and just stop it one bit at a time. Through positivity and not through punishment.
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Positivity is awesome, punishment not so much. I know exactly how you feel. One of my low points has been takin those Betty Crocker cake mix bowl things and eating the icing out of the package and not even baking the gooey batter because I wanted it NOW and I didn\'t want anyone see me go to the microwave. Needless to say I made my mom stop buying me food when I told her about that. I believe that both of us can have a good week though!
hehe. Oh YES i\'m familiar with betty\'s icing so I can\'t blame you there. I guess positivity can rewire your brain as long as everything else is kind of in balance in life huh. Like, there\'s no way I can be positive if I\'m in the middle of an extremem behaviour so the positivity is catching it before it get\'s that far... know what I mean?
Hope your well there.. thanks for the note