I just binged. I feel i dont have enjoyment from a lot of things I guess. So I enjoy eating- do that right? sigh. It doesn't make me feel any better, only for a little while. It's the anxiety that gets to me I know- and I go quiet and private like. Anyway I feel like i'm waiting until the exams are over until I actually go for eating and being healthy. I've got the exercise part happening just NOT AT ALL the eating and I really need to overcome the binges terribly. I've never really been this obsessed with food before and I know a large part of it is me thinking about my boyfriend lookinga t other girls- an issue I've got to work on!.I see skinny girls down the street and just wish I was them. That's not right :(. I feel like i'm un-attractive! Truth is, I was at a good weight before this binge eating kicked in and now I've rounded out and I find myself wearing baggy clothes to hide in. I'm sick of feeling this way and like many who have accomplished have said before they have won the battle, they too were sick of feeling this way. I want to fight it, I really do. I need a lot more psychological help lol. I may be a psych student but man, I need more pleasure in my life!!!!! Uni is making me so unhappy, i guess because of all the pressure i've been putting on myself of course and because of my negative mentality that's been opressing me. Physically I dont know what's been going on, because I get dizzy or anxious when I dont have a massive hit of sugar- I guess there's the connection eh!!!!!!I'm going to do a detox to cleanse my body of sugar and I'm hoping that will make things a lot more flowing as far as keeping to something and not going through withdrawals everyday will help big time!.I just want to purge :( bUT I refuse to! I'm not going to damage my body even worse even if it does take away some of this guilt and anxiety momentarily. Sigh.