Golly I look unattractive in that vid camera lol.Anyway so far today I've exercised at the gym, eaten healthy, and getting ready for work.Hmm... I'll go clean my room before work and try to continue this healthy streak!Found out my ex. got engaged today- I don't know why that makes me feel upset, I guess because there's been a sad ending and a lot of time between where we haven't made up. Which I guess is the point of having a relationship end sometimes! I know he really loved me at the time because he semi-propsed to me, but of course I wasn't ready and was young at the time. It's been quite a few years since... Anyway I've often found myself wondering where and how this guy is and what if ya know... now he's engaged. I'm a little confused with the whole, finding the one you are meant to be with but I'll keep seeking God and hope that I have found the one In the one i'm currently dating. I'm just a little down because as I said before, I feel that spark of fun going out of our relationship because the adventure of doing thingS isn't there... and maybe because I am not completely all 'there' in myself. Today I feel a sadness and I feel like I want to cry but I don't-