Well.... Going from a week or two previously bingeing/purging/laxative using (which I feel was just beginning to be a habit).. :( which was an intense creep up of this food addiction.. an escalation. BuT- I am beginning to stabalise after seeing the counsellor that I used to that i like- opposed to the other that didnt help at all- and it got a few things straight in my mind. I realise it's only chocolate that is my bane, and I can find other forms of it that don't make me feel guilty. So i've been having some diet choc shakes/mousse and cocoa's. They don't make me feel guilty and I've noticed already that a load is lifting... I didn't realise how badly I was talking to myself!!!I've had 2 fabulous non binge days- a rarity! My uncles birthday today; I finished off the icing on the box after having an extra diet choc mousse thing and went to have 2 more pieces of mud cake and I feel GUILTY!!! So I'm tyring to dismiss any thoughts of purging by getting away from the kitchen where there's food and well.. writing on here!!!! Of course I feel disappointed in myself for doing this. Especially because I was starting to feel a sense of self-control develop but I don't want to let this small thing ruin the way I have just started to go. I need to look at it like it could have been a lot worse- I know i was doing it out of old habit- and that I need to sort of expect the ups and downs and not be all perfectionistic about it. i'm going to get there. I want to feel good about myself and i'm going to try and be my friend- in which case I would not talk down to myself so badly..Spirit, you can do this. It was only some cake and you've done so well over the past two days, keep up the good work!