I'm having a hard day. It started out well and I just simply didnt know what to do with myself! I think it goes back to the pleasure thing, I felt like I'd done lots of chore things today and I wanted to chill. So i figured a movie would be good, only thing is that the urge to binge while i watch a movie is massive! Just sitting there for a couple of hours still is not me. Anyway I have binged today and I feel so horrible again. I've decided I'm going to see a counsellor again next week because as much as I'll say i'll try and i'll get somewhere not much is happening. Although I AM bACK at the gym which is good. I feel such self anguish or hate or something. Self detesting is how i'd describe it, it doesn't help. It makes me want to take a heap of something to knock myself out because I feel like i'm not any good to anybody else.I'm home alone today and i'm a bit fatigued. No doubt from the poor eating habits and just how things go.I feel like I can't talk to my partner about this, after-all i'm sick of hearing it myself. I almost feel sorry for any of you reading it! I don't want to be all depresso like, but I need to kick myself up the ass and have that feeling of accomplishment feel damn well good enough that i'll want to keep on doing it.I just don't feel good. Where's that pleasure in life? where...