I don't want the focus to be on me. I want to focus on God and allow God to be the core.Spending time with God is powerful and I contribute that to my week of mostly success over the chocowar. I do also think that st johns wort may be starting to kick in because it's taken off that stressy edge.... I'm going to keep it up just incase that's what it is! My excitement over having a shaped and healthy body over the anxiety of falling into the pit of binge eating and down trodden thought patterns is starting to heighten. THIS means that I am allowing myself to experience a greater sense of hope and thus determination.Self control is a fruit of the spirit after all- not something forced by works.Found out last night mum told me john was in remission but he's not. He could still have cancer but i'm praying for his healing and I do believe that he can live healthy years ahead... It's been so difficult going through all of this with him- as he does live with me and the family! The uni work is MUCH much lagging behind but I know in myself that I dO want to do it- despite this and that I still have a chance. Today I am going to work hard at trying to catch up on a lot of work I have missed because of my low mental state and BED etc. There's much pressure but I need to at least know that i'm doing my best... I do skip classes and I feel guilty but let's not let my weakness overtake my strengths.Oh how do I attack 6 weeks of work that I am behind in... my my my! Is it possible! Surely it's possible! :o