I am certainly not giving up.One step at a time I will live.  It's fathers day today- and I was talking to my mum about how she feels God speaks to her through football to my dad (who's not so much a Christian).I am constantly amazed at God's gentle voice. A God that is gentle and loving instead of one who keeps getting frustrated with me. If anyone is reading this I challenge you to make a list of how many times God might have or is speaking to you today- trying to get your attention about something or just your attention for you to feel loved like a sunset!- I have been given a new support group both here and in another binger i've met in loife- I am addressing a diet goal of eating normally with another friend- I am able to spend quality time with those I love without feeling self hate or anger when I have learned forgiveness, which I am!- God has given me a wonderful job that suits me to a tee and I've one new possibility with DOCS and wow; just as my dance teaching job fell through- I have the opportunity to maximise my time and not let it be my enemy. I am thankful that I'm learning through my thorns. I read this today and this is all I read but it hit me. 'Genesis 50.20: You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives'. I think we need to look at life like that- we may be vitimized by others or ourselves but ugliness can turn to beauty and if you need an example... they are not far Let's get out of this pit together!!! God can use is to save many lives- let's not waste time and adopt heavens eyes!