I'm at a 3rd victory day... and I'm kinda feeling uneasy and anxious. So after dinner I had a little bit of ice cream and a BIG ovaltine milkshake- well 2 actually- I wanted to make sure it filled me up so I wouldn't binge!!! But I am so full! I hate the feeling like i'm biding my time until I binge. I dont want to feel like that. I know i can't expect that feeling to go away right away, especially from the past week I've been having though so - remember that I say to myself.Anyway, I dont want to think anymore about food and what I can and can't eat or how I might get fat.. :( It fills up too much of my mind and i just dont' want it to!!!!!!! I hope the st johns wort is working. Here's to another victory day (I had fruit for breakfast, pizza for lunch, shake for middle of the day, garlic bread, tomato soup and mayo pasta for dinner - followed by desert as above). It's not ideal and I did eat till I was uncomfortably full at dinner time, particurly desert but you know.. it's okay... it's not 2 packets of chocolate and chips.I feel sick from having some wheat and dairy products though, it sucks! The bingey filling foods are just not suitable for me whatsoever... in my strength or weakness- They are particularly not suitable for me because of my health issues. You would think that it'd make me want to avoid them but noooo.Someone gave me the advice of having chocolate soymilk and I really intend to take it:) I have been.Here's to an even better 4th victory day- I can I can I can do it!