God can take this way. Thanks DarlaC. I have suffered with nightmares and some horrid thought patterns and burdens in the past and prayer was mighty in the success of these things being lifted.. Somehow I keep forgetting to pray before they happen- i guess it's that part of me that I want rid of trying to win.. It's like chains that are tied around my hands and feet, but I won't stay there. I am free. Christ's blood is much more powerful than my own in overcoming this. I'm naughty in trying to trick myself but I'm going to try and have a productive day again and not focus on the bad things but how far I am coming and going to go!This site is really helpful because I need all the encouragement I can get in this real battle. The reminder that God can take this away really lifted that burden off just a bit so I can catch my breath. To the future and making the most of life. Not staying in the pit.. If I do binge, it's not the end of the world. hehe. maybe I just had some gluten/egg/etc. free chocolate haha. but you know what -I didnt eat the whole entire bar! amen to that! hehe any positives I can get, right?