damn it. sigh. So out of control when will it end? I feel like i'm kidding myself each to trying to be hopeful. I just sat down and read a bit about binge eating disorder to my boyfriend and he silently tried to empathise. i FEEL GROSE, and unattractive confessing it to him. Afterall, he's looked at porn which is about oh so perfect figures- which seem unnattainable to me as I keep on bingeing!I want this for me, not for him - to be healthy and to eat to live.I want to know where to take this anxious feeling that I get before I binge. I want to not fantasize about food afterall tehres so much more to life!!!!