Dear Journal,

hehe. confession or dream? which should I expose!

Dream- eat to live! confession, ugh food glorious food wont someone clam my teeth together!???!

Went to the psychologist this week- made myself go as much as I didnt like it. Turns out by her evaluation this is a relapse i'm going through.. although she hasn't seen me previously to really know. I've been extremely anxious lately and now that I'm beginning to see that the anxiety is pretty normal in relation to my extentiental thinking (thinking about death mostly)... it makes sense.

 I've been bingeing but looking at this as more of a relapse. Afterall one entire pudding at lunch outdoes a pack of tim tams and half a pack of kit kats a night right? hmmm!!!

ANyway trying to change my mind about how I approach those times of pain- and let myself experience the pain instead of distancing and numbing through food which is what i'm trying to do I think. I don't really know where that 'gap' is coming from but it's there - why else am I driven to fill that place with food?

 Bring on the answers!! I'm ready life maker!!