Today i feel so hopeless for some reason.  I feel as if i have no life.  All i do is constantly worry about what is going to be the next bad thing to happen in my life.  I have a very strong faith in God and cant understand why i feel the way that i do.  I constantly worry about my son, i feel as if i neglect my daughter because of the problems that he has.  I dote on him constantly and am sure that i dont show her enough attention, and noone shows me any attention.  I feel like I am totallly alone in everything that i do or go through.  I feel like noone understands me or the way that i feel.  Through the close calls with my son i have felt completely helpless and still feel that way.  I constantly worry that something is going to happen and i am going to lose him and i dont know how i could live without him, and that keeps me from living my life and enjoying him and my daughter.  I dont know what to do but i dont know how much more i can handle.  I pray to God daily for strength and peace of mind, but just cant seem to find it.  I love life, I love my kids but need to be able to enjoy each day and not worry about what may happen.  I NEED HELP!!!!!  Lord, help me i pray.....