We made it through the funeral pretty good yesterday.  I was so proud of how strong my children were.  They held up better than I did, and that is partially due to all the guilt that I feel for the things that I have said about their father in the past, that now it is too late to take back.. I can only hope that in his last moments that he had time to make things right with God and that is living with Jesus now.  I hope this for my kids so much because i dont want to have to lie to them when i say that they will see their dad again one day in paradise with Jesus.