Today has been such a traumatic day.  The news came at 6:30 this morning that my childrens father died of an accidental overdose last night.  I was so stricken by this news, because our relationship was not a good one, and there have been so many times that i have said "we would be so much better off if he were just gone from our lives".  Now i feel so guilty about having said those things.  My children are heart broken, after all he was there father, no matter how little of one he was to them.  I just pray for strenght from go to help to get them through this.  They have seen so much death in our family in there short lives that i am so afraid that this is going to traumatize them so that they have problems like i do..I certainly hope that this does not happen.  God Give Us Strength!!!!