It's my birthday today.  My son woke me up raising hell because his shoes were not laced the way he wanted them and i went off the deep end and cussed out like a sailor.  Now i cant do anything but cry since he got on the school bus, even tho i apologized to him before he left.  Sometimes its just like i am Dr. Jekyll and MS. Hyde.  I go from docile and laid back to a vicious animal ready to take someones head off.  Ive never physically hurt anyone, but the way i talk to my kids sometimes is just rediculous.  I dont want to feel this way anymore.  Dont know what to do other than pray and ask God to help me and that is what i do.