I have so much more that I could be doing, and should be doing especially now that I am out of school until Jan. I have no excuse. Yet I also have no energy. No drive. I always make it to work. Ive always been very good about that. I basically do what I must. But I come here and lay down in the middle of the day. I know what it is. Im mentally fatigued. It is amazing how stifling this condition can be. Im not exactly a bright eyed bushy tailed hyperactive circus clown  in the emotional department, either. In fact lately I can get as twisted up as two pissed off cats fighting under a friggin' blanket. But at least two psycho felines have some fight in them or the sense to eventually find their way out.  Hi, "Im Maria- and I am NOT smarter than a 5th gra-----than a pissed off feline!!!"     Im gonna go to the gym eat right wash my car clean my house go to Mass change my oil fix my computer change my attitude bla bla bla. No, Im full of shit---Im gonna go lay down.   Im really not trying to bust my own chops. I do that enuff! I suppose Im just kickin' myself in the ass  and acknowledging the things that need to change before anything. I really am ready but this energy level thing is pissing me off.  In fact, Im so mad about it I could kick my own ass, man. Yes I will, too!!! Thats it!!--its on!!---   HEY I CANT SEE- -GET THIS BLANKET OFFA ME