Update

Thought I would update my journal instead of just updating my status.  I go in tomorrow to my RE's ofc (going in b/c I AF showed and they are doing u/s & b/w to make sure I can go forward w/ stims) and I am somewhat nervous.  Always the pesimist, I keep wondering if I have a cyst and they cancel my cycle for some reason.  I'm just so darn scared of the whole process.  As it fastly approaches, my nerves are heightened! DH and I had a long discussion last night at dinner about transferring one vs two embies.  I have read studies on getting great results on transferring just one (like some countries are doing) if the egg quality is great in women my age.  I know I've always told myself, if I do IVF and pay that much money, I'm transferring two...but to be honest I am scared to death of twins.  See, I'm looking way ahead....because it might not work.  See why I have to take xanax everynight right now b/4 I go to bed.  The what if's and why's and doubts are killing my head...I think I went to bed lastnight w/ an actually headache because my brain has been on overload...can that possible happen?? So we shall see what my doc says tomorrow....