So sorry it's been so long since I've posted a journal.  I appreciate all the support and hugs given w/in the last couple of weeks.  I just needed some time to re-group. My insurance company got in touch w/ me on a bid last week and it was (as expected) too expensive for us.  It might help out a little in the long run but the amount we would have to pay each month, we could not do.  Anyway, we have been baby dancing the last several days in hopes that our miracle comes naturally.  I'm a pessimist at heart and am trying so hard to be hopeful...that's what I have DH for, right? Two weeks I will wait and if nothing, I will start the BCP and IVF should be around mid April.  I am so nervous and thrilled all at the same time.  A friend of mine that does not live in my hometown but uses the same fertility clinic I do, found out she is pregnant after 6 years of trying, FSH levels were too high for her age (she is 30), 4 failed IUIs and this was her first IVF...so I keep remembering her in my mind right now and I am ready to do THIS!!!