My surgery date keeps getting closer and closer.  My doc FINALLY called me in some miracle pills (xanax) so my anxiety level has decreased somewhat just knowing I have them.  I took one last night because it's been a crazy week (I put my 2weeks notice in Mon) and my dh asked me if I was drunk:) I said no, I'm just totally relaxed....no worries!  We leave for the beach in 2 weeks and I can't wait.  It will be perfect timing....I will get to relax and soak up some rays before the surgery.  We had a revival at our church this week.  I went Monday and last night but my dh went w/o me tonight.  I was just too tired.  I know that's not a good excuse but the nights I did go, it did me so good.  I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I know that was the good Lord's doing.  He has blessed my life in so many other ways and I can not forget that....just knowing He will take care of me gives me peace I have longed for this past year.  I hope everyone here gets the peace they desire....oh, and a BABY would be nice too, huh?