Haveing a bit of a ruff night tonight. so i'm just gonna vent. When my mind gets to moveing this fast. my fingers cant keep up. so please ignore all the typos. Been doig great on my new meds this week. first week i've been takeing them and doc said it should take a while for them to work, but already been feeling good till today. hubby called me at work and we got in a fight over something stupid that he was accuseing me of. I'm getting realy tired of feelig like i'm his mom or a roommate, and want to be a loved wife again. i mean he tells me he loves me every day like 5 times a day ( we are one of thos emushy couples who have no problem telling the other we love them) and he works at a job he absolutley hates to provide for us. but is it wrong of me to want more??
Then found out today that corporate at work is cutting all the parttiners down to 15 hrs aweek. So since i have already worked 16 hrs this week, they told me not to worry about comeing into work the rest of this week :/ So i'm like great!!! and on top of that I had sent an e-mail to my upper manager and HR about some concerences I had with one of my dep heads. well i don't know if they took me serious or not when they pulled me into the office to talk about it.
Also found out that I thought my insurance coverd alot more than they did and have been getting test done on me cause my doc thinks my gallbladder mioght be dead and not working. Well I got 2 bills in the mail for $600 bucks and a hosp bill for $2000!!!! OMG!! Great?!?! can't hardly keep our heads above water now, now I got a crap ton of med bill to pay and cant get anymore test done, much less surgery if i need it :(
Then after I got home hubby called to apologize about looseing his cool this morn. It just really hurt my feelings cause he never talked to me like that before. but anyways I told him thank you for apologizeing to me. Well went to make dinner, and our cabients and freezer are about bear. so we had a very lovely dinner of fried bologna sandwiches! Then i got hubby waking around and being all bummy and moopy worrying about money and never haveing any. Both our cars need serious repair, our house needs some stuff fixed, hubby is calling me every 5 min it seems like to have me pray for him cause he is worried about money or shit at work or something, when i'm the one who needs him to support me cause i'm just as worried. I'm tired of worrying if we will have enough food till friday, or gas prices, or is the truck gonna start today so i can go to work?
Sigh.... Idk i guess I'm just venting about the same old shit that everybody else in this counry is going through right now unless you are in the 1%. I think we are almost above the bottom of the 99%. Just want to stop worrying about everything!!!! I hope these meds work for me so I can stop worrying so dang much!!!
Then found out today that corporate at work is cutting all the parttiners down to 15 hrs aweek. So since i have already worked 16 hrs this week, they told me not to worry about comeing into work the rest of this week :/ So i'm like great!!! and on top of that I had sent an e-mail to my upper manager and HR about some concerences I had with one of my dep heads. well i don't know if they took me serious or not when they pulled me into the office to talk about it.
Also found out that I thought my insurance coverd alot more than they did and have been getting test done on me cause my doc thinks my gallbladder mioght be dead and not working. Well I got 2 bills in the mail for $600 bucks and a hosp bill for $2000!!!! OMG!! Great?!?! can't hardly keep our heads above water now, now I got a crap ton of med bill to pay and cant get anymore test done, much less surgery if i need it :(
Then after I got home hubby called to apologize about looseing his cool this morn. It just really hurt my feelings cause he never talked to me like that before. but anyways I told him thank you for apologizeing to me. Well went to make dinner, and our cabients and freezer are about bear. so we had a very lovely dinner of fried bologna sandwiches! Then i got hubby waking around and being all bummy and moopy worrying about money and never haveing any. Both our cars need serious repair, our house needs some stuff fixed, hubby is calling me every 5 min it seems like to have me pray for him cause he is worried about money or shit at work or something, when i'm the one who needs him to support me cause i'm just as worried. I'm tired of worrying if we will have enough food till friday, or gas prices, or is the truck gonna start today so i can go to work?
Sigh.... Idk i guess I'm just venting about the same old shit that everybody else in this counry is going through right now unless you are in the 1%. I think we are almost above the bottom of the 99%. Just want to stop worrying about everything!!!! I hope these meds work for me so I can stop worrying so dang much!!!
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I am sorry about Your worrys\'. Have You asked Your Husband to pray for You. Tell Him that You worry just as much as he does & tell Him that Your in this situation together. I will be Praying for the Both of You.
I hope today finds you a little better. I know things can be rough, I can remember some doozies. Both of you need to put some of that load in Gods hands and with an honest heart ask for some guidance in your next move. God has a way of knowing we are not asking for things, but asking for direction and help. Keep us posted... God Bless you and your family always!