Ugh..I am awake again.. my silly doctor is against sleeping meds and so I have to suffer. I have slept all of 6 hours in 5 days and its driving me insane! Normally I clean the house but I don't feel like it right now, I feel that I always do it and I am tired of always being the one to clean up the place. Listening to music and burning incense of course is routine for me but tonight, other than loading up poetry I can't focus on anything else. Consideing the fact that I am still drinking (and I know I shouldn't be), probably doesn't help. My partner when to sleep 7 hours ago.. of course. Thats another thing thats bothering me. I feel like we hardly spend any time together just her and I and I need that comfort in my life. I used to never need that comfort because it was something I was afraid of leaving so I just never opened myself to it and now that I am seeing her thats all I want! I mean, its not like we don't spend quality time together it's just that lately it feels like its never enough for me. I don't know. I am just a nutjob.Even the freakin' cats are sleeping for goodness sake! damn..*wishing someone would deck me and knock me out.. I will deal with the headache when it comes...*