So..It's been a long while since I have written a journal entry.. and I think its because I have been so busy. Working a full-time and a part-time job and spending quality time with my Lady.. life is or was grande. I didn't want this to happen with this one but its beginning to. I have come to a place where I don't want to be. I have fallen hard for someone.. very, very hard and now things are uncertain. I cannot believe how incredibly sad I am about this. I am in real love with her.. I have thoughts for the future and wants, needs, plans.. I feel for her what I never thought was possible.. I opened myself raw for the first time and now its all uncertain. I hurt so much that I feel cold... I feel like this is the last time I will do this. I can't open myself anymore to those whom "love" me but can't deal with me or whatever.. I just can't. I am still in love with her and if she wants me in her life I will gladly jump at the chance but I .. she needs to know what I am dealing with.I think this time I am broken beyond repair..Time to go.